Alrighty then! Hiatus over!
To summarize the lack of posting, and yes, this is being cross posted throughout the blogs...
School is hell, and I'm not talking the easy first or second levels, I'm talking about those nasty, deeper levels. I've busted my ass this semester for a dickwad who I hope has a world of shit to crawl through after the scathing review I've left him.
Lets get one thing straight, shall we?
Writing is an expression of feeling in written form. That feeling can EASILY be lost as it is read and interpreted by other folks. Analyzing that feeling depends on the reader, and as long as that reader can back it up, they can't be "wrong"... because it is THEIR feelings. YOUR feelings and THEIR feelings do not have to match.
Understood?
Good!
So, after a mental break of sanity because I thought I was losing my gift, I managed to churn out my two English final exam papers. I submitted them without doing much reviewing on my end, nor do I care if they are shit or not at this point. I'm going to pass, and nothing can be worse than the D- I have in a Statistics class... oh, and the dual C's in Italian. At worst, I get a B. Oh boy! I still maintain a 3.7 gpa somehow. I'm magic, I tell you.
Oh! and I dumped my boyfriend of almost three years.
I think we all got that though. See the below posts.
That just couldn't be an easy process, could it? Next time, I'm just poisoning people. It's easier.
I've also just finished, what I consider, the most hellish art class one could ever take. My best friend, who is an art major, and her professor who I had the pleasure of meeting, both have considered this class to be completely awful. Completing my final projects was close to ripping out my teeth with pliers without an aspirin to a help.
I've ALSO bought a car and managed to navigate a NY death highway... I'm human, sorry. I have fears, just, ones filled with big metal boxes smashing into my itty bitty car.
Of course, the usual "I'm going into a dead field, I'll never find a job, I'm going to live at home forever working a crappy job for the rest of my days" is always around. As the days pass and NOTHING gets better.. you know, the dilemma all recent college grads are facing...
Add all these up into a wonderful slurry and serve it up to me with a cherry on top and boba at the bottom!
It killed my creativity and my focus. I couldn't sit and write a blog entry without deleting it, I couldn't read a book without quitting after a page or so, I couldn't even get through treasured video game. My reading challenge stagnated, my writing ceased...
Thankfully, that has all cleared up. I took a sickday (because I truly felt like shit) and watched over ten hours of Doctor Who and My Little Pony. That is a lot of space travel and ponies, let me tell you...
Happy endings cannot happen all the time. I know this. I'm still a sucker for them though. So, my ponies go on, the Doctor travels on, and I'm picking my shit up again. I've returned to XI, which feels fucking amazing. You have no idea. Just dressing my Mei up make me smile. I sat and wrote again, I read again, and here I am, blogging again.
Ahh, a functioning brain, such a brilliant thing.
I'll call it a summer of Mei-provements. Meilin-themed-improvements. I have a lot of work to do. My website, my guild, needs much more work, I have writing to work on, a Japanese challenge exam to pass, and who knows what else!
In summary..
...and I have.
So there.
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